So it used to really bother me when I would read blogs where women just complained about being a mom because I wanted t be a mom so bad. Now I am humbled and less judgmental! Let's get one thing clear, I LOVE BEING A MOM AND I AM MADLY IN LOVE WITH MCCOY.
Now that that is out of the way, I will vent a little. If you don't care then just look at he pictures:) When I was pregnant everyone told me that I would never sleep again. I laughed because I had no idea how true that statement would be.
People would tell me how their baby slept a full night at 6 weeks and I told myself to just make it until then. That time came and went and I was still waking up every 2 to 3 hours. Then people told me 8 weeks or 6 months or when he starts eating solids. We have now passed all of those milestones and I am still getting up every 3 hours. Let me tell you, I am crashing and burning. I try all of the things my friends tell me and McCoy just doesn't respond.
Side note here, I have the best husband ever! He has been so patient through all of this. I cry a lot and I am impatient and it has just been hard on my body. He helps so much when he is home and makes dinner and is just wonderful.
People keep telling me that he will sleep eventually, but I don't want to spend my time wishing his life away. He is just about to crawl and he says dada now. I want to enjoy the things I love about him now. That single toothed grin melts my heart every time. That is what gets me through the day and sleep will return eventually and then I will probably have another baby and start the cycle all over again :)
3 comments:
Oh my goodness, I feel you. Kayla is only six-weeks old and I am already having mental breakdowns.
My one month old sleeps better than my nineteen month old. :D
Just rest when you can (whether it's sleeping or sitting or vegging) and pray a lot. Really. I'll pray for you, too.
On some level I completely understand what you are saying. I was totally strung out miserable when I was sleep deprived. I remember calling my mom and telling her through sobs how I felt like I was losing it. She comforted me and said, "Now you know why they used sleep deprivation to torture prisoners of war." I realized then that sleep deprivation is true torture. Saying, "Hang in there!" sounds so trite...so I won't say that...but, keep fighting the good fight, Mama...sending prayers and mental hugs your way :)
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